What I know for sure

It is a very mixed blessing to be brought back from the dead.

“There isn’t much better in this life than finding a way to spend a few hours in conversation with people you respect and love. You have to carve this time out of your life because you aren’t really living without it.”

Although a few of my relationships have burnt out last summer, some have been rekindled. Some I didn’t even realize could be brought back. It is amazing how some friends you can go forever without speaking, and in a flash it is as if time had stopped just for you.

After I joined the Navy I hated coming home. I miss and love my family, but I would run into people I had been friends with and wonder how they got stuck where they were. I am by no means saying I am better than them. I just chose to live my life in a different manor. I found there are two people when I go home- that I cannot live without: Mark and Katie. I have known Mark since I was 9 months old and Katie since first grade.

“>The shifts of Fortune test the reliability of friends.”

Although I would love to go on about how amazing Mark is (and he is), this note is going to be based off my happenings with Katie. Katie, as I said, is one of my oldest friends. We grew appart when I moved schools. We spent quite a few years not being in communication. Lucky for me, Mark and Katie had started dating during Katie and my off years. When I would come home on leave, not only did I get to see my brother, but also Katie. It was hard not to rekindle that childhood friendship.

“Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.”

Last summer was a rough one for me. I made many life altering, show stopping choices. It was the summer my marriage ended and my new life began. I wasn't planning on it happening when it did. Katie and I got the crazy idea she should come stay with me for a week. It was an amazing week.

We talked about love, heart ache (her and Mark had been over for a while by then), life, and dreams. We laughed and lived. It was good to breath with her again. I confided in her the heart break I was going through, knowing Eric and I weren't working. Although she never said she was for or against my decisions, she supported me through the choices I made. She didn't back down, and she was there for me when I crashed. My friend of sixteen (at the time) years was the one to witness my fall and rebirth.

I don't know if she knows it. I don't know what all I said or showed, but her being there that week is the only thing that kept me going at the time.

“Never explain-your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway.”

I have learned that to be the truest statement. I didn't have to argue my point. Katie held my hand when I needed it. True friendship is loving and understanding. Katie and I still don't get to talk much. I see her even less. Still, I know she is one of my truest and dearest friends. She will always be my love to laugh with and my shoulder to cry on. Time doesn't matter in a friendship like ours.

"I no doubt deserved my enemies, but I don't believe I deserved my friends.”

Since last summer I have made some amazing friends, and I have been blessed to still keep some of my old ones. I have not gone hungry or without. I have always been blessed. I don't know what I have done to deserve these amazing people, but to all of you who are in my life, Thank You. I can not say it sincerely or eloquently enough. I love you, and I don't know where I would be without you.